Waiting for the Thaw

About this time, in the state of Wisconsin, we have had enough of winter. We are waiting for the thaw; the end of the chill; waiting for warmth to restore our landscape and our hearts. I'll admit I've become restless, I've been short with my beloved, and I need to apologize for that. Last night I felt bad for myself after a long car ride in bad winter weather with two impatient teenagers in the vehicle. I had already forgotten the breathtaking physical beauty of the day before, when I snapped this picture from the passenger seat of the car. Now I was having my own personal pity party and all I wanted was a bath. When my boyfriend didn't react the way I wanted him to on the phone, it ticked me off and made me pull away from him, but then something in me clicked. I realized that I didn't need to pull away - I needed to pull him closer. I decided I would make it a point to see what he needed from me; what I could do for him; how I could make his life better with me in it. So I asked him what I could do to lighten his load this week, told him I knew he'd been stressed out with teaching and coaching, and mentioned that I wanted to make him smile because when he was happy, I was happy. It didn't seem to sway him much last night, but then, this morning, I saw remarkable changes in him - changes I believe I would not have seen had I stayed on my course of nit picking and pouting about why he wasn't reacting the way I had hoped. Tonight we have made plans for a romantic night together. Yippeee! We both win!